Wait! Who are you? I haven’t received any message about suicide. I’m sorry. How can I help? :( xx
It hurt a little bit. I wanted to lose mine at 15 but wasn’t in a relationship till 17. So I lost it then. I deeply regretted it and wished I waited till I was older xx
DIRTY LOUIS TOMLINSON IMAGINE BY LOVEZAYNLIKEALOVESONG
It was march fifth, to others it can be just another day, but to you it was one THE most important dates. It was your long term boyfriend, Louis Tomlinson coming back from his tour. Six months is something, with a person like Louis, who has such tight schedules, busy days and away from home tours, every time. You both were far, but something kept you together, fate, passion or just pure love. two months had passed since you hadn’t seen him in person, you only wondered how you could make it this far without him. You were twenty one, third year of your university, because you were involved in so many cultural activities, you couldn’t have taken a day off, to see, greet and meet your boyfriend. All day you were just thinking about him, and what all you would do when he’s back.
It was perfect, raining, pretty dark for an afternoon, not humid but just chilly enough for things to get beautiful between you and him.
'Hey babe!' you said passing a wide smile to your boyfriend Mr. Louis William Tomlinson, hugging him tight and kissing him for what seemed like an hour. You both moved into the kitchen, he sat on the table moving his feet in the way which is counted among bad manners, well Lou will be Lou. You could tell by his moves, he’s curious. ’I’ve missed you’ he said smiling looking like an angel, as he held you by the waist and kissed your forehead. It was not seconds later, you dumped the groceries besides him and pulled in for another kiss. You both were smiling like idiots, consuming the fact that Louis was in front of you was still difficult. ‘I’ve missed you too Tommo’ you replied. ‘How has, my (Y/N) been?’ ‘She’s been itching for you’ you said holding him from his soft ginger hair. ‘I love you (Y/N)’ he replied kissing you again, you moved your hand through his hair as the kiss got deeper and deeper. after some foreplay, He gently bit your lower lip entering into your mouth. Your tongues touching each other, taking in all the flavours, he pulled apart from the kiss, and grinned watching you bite your lip knowing that it was turning you on. He moved towards your jawline, left kisses -passionate ones- under you ear. You couldn’t help letting out a moan and pulled his hair. Reaching your collar bone he started leaving love bites. He pulled apart again, looked you into your eyes, smiled and slowly kissed you again. You were confused, you didn’t know what he wanted, still you played along enjoying every bit of the touch you haven’t felt in months. He again moved from your mouth, to your jaw line and your neck, leaving sloppy kisses all over. Reaching your collar bone, he started sucking, another moan and you felt him grinning against your skin, as he found your soft point he started to suck and bit a few times. Just to create enough lust inside you he needed to make this the best night you ever had had. Now you wanted him even more. Your hands wondered around his perfect chest pinching the nipples a bit, he groaned against your skin. Now kissing you passionately, He breathlessly pulled away ‘(Y/N), I’ve had a week of nothing but stress, [*his lips still touching yours*] tiredness,tension and God knows what all’, ‘Hey, what happened?’ you said with concern pulling his face towards you pushing his cheekbone. Opening his eyes slowly, he replied ‘Just for one night… can you please, make me feel different? Can you let me tell you how much I love you?’ he said looking deep into you eyes, making your knees weak.
All the dots were now connected, the puzzled was solved. He wanted you, he wanted to make you feel wanted and that you were his, and only his, he owns you, your heart and your body and that he loves it, and this was his way to show his love.
You didn’t waste a second and pulled in for, what you can call the most passionate kiss you had ever had. You both slowly moved to your couch in the living room, not breaking the kiss. Finally he pushed you onto the couch, took his shirt off and aimed straight for your lips in no time. You raced your hand on his abs which made him shudder taking advantage of that you slipped his denims off and he does the same with your clothes letting your undergarments be on your body. From pecking your lips, kissing you neck, to biting on your collar bone, everything felt divine. Sucking on your soft point, which made you moan his name, made him smile again. His hands slowly, wandering around your panty, as if teasing. Slowly his other hand un-clipped your bra, and he aimed for the center kissing all over in no time. You arched your back as he pinched on one of your nipples, containing the pleasure. You moved your hands from the couch cover to his hair, pulling them which made you earn a nice moan form louis’ side. Both of you were moaning, until he pulled your panty down and started fingering you. Your body was going crazy under his touch. He started kissing you deep your eyes closed, you were soo into the kiss that you didn’t come to know when he inserted on of his fingers into you. You moaned and wanted to breathe still he didn’t let you pull from the kiss. He wanted you more than ever. When you arched your back, he smiled and let you breathe and contain the feeling and pleasure he had been giving you. The reaction and your closed eyes made him even more happy, satisfying him for he knew HE was making you feel good. And that was enough for him to increase his pace. As your eyes were closed and your body was dancing nder his, he was just there watching you through your closed eyes, and just realizing how much he loves you. ‘Louis…’ you moaned his name trailing off as you reached your high. ‘What the he-!’ you said as he pulled out before you could release. ’Sorry baby, I want to save it for me’ he said in his charming accent, which made you melt inside. ‘He pulled in for another kiss massaging your busts. he pulled away breathlessly and looked towards you again smiling softly, with affection clear in his eyes. You smiled back, he slowly adjusted himself into you entrance, pulled you closer, so that your chests were touching. You took a deep breath, and he slowly pushed himself into you, never losing eye contact. You couldn’t take it anymore, you closed your eyes shut. and arched your back at the same time, letting out a tear as you went through the pain but flow of passion and pleasure all over your body. He gripped your back from the shoulder blades and pulled you even closer… if there was any space left. Slowly he pulled out and pushed in. In, out, in, out, gradually gaining speed. you arched your back and moaned his name loud, one of his hands moved from your back to where you needed him the most. ‘Feels good baby?’ he asked and you felt your hormones rushing through your tummy. You gripped his hair tight. As you were both near, ‘fa-ster lo-uis’ you said in pats trying to speak. ‘Oh dam-mit’ he groaned. ‘Louis’ you moaned loudly as you released into him, he wasn’t there yet , he still kept on going, and that made you go crazy. You arched your back, moving along his moves. Soon he joined you and it was just pure bliss.
'Damn, I love you (Y/N), so much' he said brushing off strands of hair from your face. 'I do too louis, more than you know of' you said kissing him under his ears as he returned on on the forehead. He slowly slid himself besides you and brushed your cheekbone smiling you returned him the smile and kissed softly.
It is totally normal for it to hurt! For most girls, it hurts the first time. It was really smart to have him pull out :)
For the next time tho:
I hope the next time you guys have sex it doesn’t hurt :) happy intercoursing xx
The London Eye
I was out on a date with my boyfriend Niall in London and it was almost midnight when he suggested we go on the London Eye. I jumped at the idea, how romantic to look over London with my gorgeous boyfriend in nothing but the moonlight and the lights of the city. The London eye looked beautiful all lit up in the darkness of the night. We lined up and Niall held me in a tight hug as we waited for a short period of time, because not many people were there so late. Every once in awhile I would steal glances up at him and he would smirk down at me. Fans would come and stand in line right behind us, so they would have an excuse to talk to him and I didn’t mind it, it felt like just yesterday I was one of them. Niall was polite as always taking photos and signing anything they had on them. We finally reached the front of the line and the fans had disappeared, so we got our own private ride, which never happened and it made it even more perfect. We entered and I went straight to the window and I heard Niall giggle at me being so anxious like a child. I stood at the banister looking out over the city and Niall stood behind me placing his hands right beside mine on either side of the banister.
“It’s so beautiful,” I said looking out at London, a place I couldn’t believe I was now calling home.
“Not as beautiful as you,” Niall said kissing me on the cheek.
“You are so cheesy,” I said playfully smacking him on his right arm as I blushed. We were just reaching the top and I turned around and I pulled Niall in for a kiss. His hands fell to my hips and he pulled me closer to him and he deepened the kiss. Our lips worked in sync together as they always did, every kiss we shared was absolute perfection, making my stomachs do flips.
He licked my bottom lip asking for entrance and I denied him, I pulled away biting on his bottom lip to drive him crazy, “Not here, when we get home,” I said winking at him and biting on my own lip now. I turned back around expecting to see we were almost at the ground after our drawn out kiss, but we were still at the top.
Then I realized that it was almost pitch black, and the Ferris wheel was not moving. I looked back at Niall and I saw him swallow the lump that had formed in his throat in the mere seconds that I had turned around in. I realized that all the lights in London had gone out, it was a blackout.
“The power will be back on in a minute babe,” I said running my hands through my claustrophobic boyfriend’s hair to comfort him. I knew that the small bubble started to feel a little smaller each second for him. He sat down on the bench in the middle trying to keep his breathing steady, I stood against the banister just watching him not sure what to do. Five minutes passed and I could see the sweat forming on his hairline. I knew I needed to keep him calm because I had no idea how long we would be stuck up here and I didn’t need him having a panic attack up here. I decided to calm him down the only way I knew, I would distract him. I sat down next to him on the oval shaped bench, and I placed my hand on his thigh and started rubbing up and down.
“Babe, please stop,” I could hear the aggravation in his voice and he ran his fingers through his hair and leaned back on the bench so his back was on it, I didn’t stop though. I laid down next to him and kissed down his neck, I could feel him shaking under my touch.
“Relax babe,” I whispered in his ear as I nibbled on his earlobe and then down his jaw line. Our lips finally met and Niall let his hormones take over and he fought back hungrily. I smiled when I heard his breathing change from shaky to heavy, meaning he was more focused on me then the seemingly small carriage we were in. I crawled on top of him and his hands went straight for my ass, Niall’s nerves were making him aggressive and it made me wet just to think what he might do to me in this carriage even though someone below may see us somehow. I let my hands find their way to his hair and I ran my fingers through it and pulled him closer to me. He rolled us over so he was now lying on top of me and his hands were sliding up and down my sides, as I could feel his growing bulge in his pants up against my thigh.
I pushed him off of me to tease him since he was calm now and I wanted to make him angry, “Well the power should be back on any minute,” repeating myself from before and walked over to my original position at the banister. I heard Niall gasp behind me and walked over so he was once again behind me, but this time he wrapped his arms around my stomach to pull me towards him.
I could feel his now full erection across my ass and I saw his other hand go behind me to unzip his pants, “Don’t make me fuck you right up against the glass,” he said between clenched teeth. I just moaned at the thought, and I let my head roll back on to Niall’s shoulder.
“I bet you would like that, wouldn’t you,” he asked knowing the answer.
I chose the best night to wear a miniskirt and he flipped the flowy piece of material up so he could stare at my backside, “Quite a view I got,” he said with a chuckle, I didn’t have to turn around to know his eyes were boring into my butt. He then gave my ass a rough grab and a slight spank as he pulled his hand away, and then slipped around the front of my skirt and pushed my thong to the side to rub circles around my clit. I was grinding against his crotch with my basically bare ass now. Niall removed his other hand from my stomach so it could wander down to his now throbbing member. He then pushed me against the railing so my face was almost touching the glass. I looked down and I couldn’t see anything because of the complete blackout in London, so I assumed no one could see us.
“Hold on tight babe,” he said as he placed his member at my entrance and slowly slid in. I grabbed a hold of the banister trying to lift myself up so Niall could fit more of himself in me, he held me by my hips trying to help me balance myself. He was thrusting in an out of me agonizingly slow, so if anyone below by any chance could see us it would just seem like we were standing incredibly close together. He was grunting between clench teeth and moaning directly into my ear as his chin rested right on my shoulder.
“Niall, faster,” after many pleas, Niall pulled out of me, “Bench,” he ordered me.
I was more than happy to oblige and scurried over to the bench. I decided this time I wasn’t going to let Niall dominate me. When he walked over to the bench and laid next to me I pounced on him not giving him a chance to take control as he always did. He didn’t like this and fought to regain control, but I wouldn’t let him win this time. I grabbed his shaft and placed it once again at my entrance and slid down on him. I automatically began riding him at a steady pace needing it after the slow attack at the window. Niall came up to meet me so we were in a sitting position and my legs wrapped around his back. He kissed me roughly trying to find any way to gain some sort of control in the position he was in.
He found his control in his words instructing me what to do while I rode him, “You like riding my cock don’t you?” I basically whined out, “I love it Niall,” having my head fall on his shoulder and bit down trying to contain my moans.
“Faster babe, you’re almost there,” I hated that even when I was on top he still found a way to dominate me, so I wouldn’t listen to his instructions even though ever muscle in my body wanted to.
“Not going to listen to me? Fine, it’ll just make it more fun when we get home,” at the thought of how we would punish me when we got home for disobeying him drove me crazy and I lost all control. I began riding him as fast as I could and I wanted to smack the grin off his face. I let him win, I hate it when Niall won, but I need my release too badly to not let him. I leaned my head back as I felt my orgasm approach and Niall took this chance to attack my breasts that were put on full display for him when I leaned back. He reached his hands into my shirt and massaged both breasts and laid kisses all over them and sucking on each nipple. The pleasure was too much and my orgasm hit me hard, I continued riding him through it and it was like electricity ran through my body, I screamed out his name and a million other profanities with it. He pushed me off of him as I finished and I dropped to my knees in front of the bench and took him in my mouth. I knew he was close already by the way he was panting and swearing like a sailor. His hands went straight to my hair and he bucked his hips and I took his hint to place his whole cock in my mouth. I gagged and continued sucking on him placing my tongue flat against his shaft letting it slide up and down, and left to right to touch every inch of him. I sucked hard right away, not taking the time to tease him knowing the power could come back on any second and we could get caught. Minutes later when he released his load into my mouth, I placed just the tip of his cock on the tip of my tongue and held my mouth open wide so he could watch as he came in my mouth. I rolled my tongue as he finished letting him see how much of his cum was in my mouth and kept eye contact with him as I swallowed.
“Yum,” I said smirking up at him, “The power should come on any minute now,” I said with a wink repeating myself once again. Niall fell back on the bench trying to catch his breath and I sat next to him on the ground and we put ourselves back together. Time passed and the power finally came back on and we made our slow decent to the ground once again and exited the Ferris wheel. They gave us their apologies as we left and found Zayn, Harry, Louis and Liam waiting for us.
“What are you lads doing here,” Niall questioned as we approached them.
“Well when the power went off it was all over the internet that you were in the London Eye and we were all worried about you guys. Especially Niall, being claustrophobic and all,” Liam rambled on being such the worry wart he was.
“No worries guys, [Y/N] found a way to distract me,” kissing me on the forehead and smirking at me.
Here’s some tips:
There are a lot of videos on YouTube about giving a good blowjob so maybe before you go to bed, watch one or two and observe the techniques they use.
This might sound creepy but I was in that EXACT situation when I was in high school… Like exact. Three of my friends hated him but we were involved in a purely sexual way. Anywayyyyyy…
I do have some tips to make the first time manageable!
Here are some questions you can ask yourself to know if you’re ready or not:
I hope this helped! You can talk to me about this whenever you want as well. I can tell you off anon how this relationship ended if you want to know :) xx just send a message babe
I think it depends on your age more than anything
If you’re under 18… Make sure you’ve been close for a couple of years and are both fully ready. I don’t believe you have to date necessarily but I would advice you to :) that way there aren’t any nasty feelings after.
If you’re 18-22… Hang out for a while. I know you’ll want to rush in and start having sex as soon as possible but wait. It’ll be worth it.
Over 22… do whatever you want. The world is yours.
4: Weirdest place you’ve had sex?
Already answered! Oh boy. Well we didn’t technically have sex but while we were in a cable car on vacation, my boyfriend and I had our hands down each others pants.
7: Have you ever had any one night stands?
Once early in college. I only liked this one guy for his body and I knew I wouldn’t get a relationship out of it so I fucked him haha
11: What does your favourite sexy underwear look like?
Ooooo I have this red thong (shown to be sexiest color) and a very lacy bra :)
12: How often do you have sex?
Every night - every other night.
19: Would you prefer sex in the bath or sex in the shower?
Sex in the bath. It’s not as dangerous and you get to make bubble beards :)